Come on. Higher! Higher!

31.1.11

I was thinking that maybe the honeymoon period was slipping away but, realistically, I should be blaming it on my lack of sleep. It's been accumulating and it was always going to drag me down. And I can't rely on moving to a new and exciting place to take care of my mood! I was operating at a lower level, my mind got closed off to appreciating and enjoying everything.

I got back from Luxembourg last night. I just had about 12 hours of sleep straight and had an amazing dream. I was in this really open field of grass and there was a beautiful beach that spanned forever left and right. It was impossibly, perfectly warm and there was absolutely not wind. I was wearing shorts and a T-Shirt and that in itself was surprising and enjoyable. Then Michael Clarke turned up and shook my hand and we were going to play a game of cricket. It just felt like everyone was there... all of my friends at once. I didn't really picture them, I just knew they were there next to me. I don't even like Michael Clarke, and him being there spoiled the perfectness of the situation... Oh well, the situation was so outrageously unrealistic I just took it and went with it.

It doesn't take a perfect location and weather to be able to appreciate things that aren't perfect, though. I'm going to get more sleep and start thinking positively and proactively again.